Saturday, November 25, 2006

Sometimes Things Have To Get Worse Before They Get Better

Behold the shiner after a few days:

I'm very fair-skinned, so it was a given that I'd turn purple (and probably green). I have gone out in public, and nobody has said much of anything. They've given the poor Count a few dirty looks, though.

It still hurts, though it's not quite as tender now, and the swelling has gone down. Sometimes I won't think about it for a little while, and then be reminded again when I look in the mirror or something touches it too closely.

I think the same can be said about my heart. Though my eye will heal a lot quicker.

Yesterday would have been my brother's 36th birthday. We decided as a family to keep it as a day of celebration and remembrance, not a day to dread. So I raised my fork with MY favorite kind of cake (lemon cake with cream cheese frosting. David's favorite was German chocolate) and had a cup of tea in his honor. He would have done the same for me.

For David:

I thought of you with love today
But that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday
And days before that too.
I think of you in silence
I often speak your name.
Now all I have are memories
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake
With which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping
I have you in my Heart.

8 comments:

msubulldog said...

Oh, your poor husband to have to suffer the glares! *Too bad there's no sunshine to justify hiding behind some sunglasses. :)
I'm glad you were all able to remember David in celebration on his birthday.

Jennifer said...

Ouch, your eye looks painful.

My thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family. I'm glad you were able to celebrate his memory on your brother's birthday.

mamma said...

Your strength is inspiring.

Tiffany said...

What a nice shiner you got. :)

I love the poem. It made me cry. I also love that you still celebrated his birthday. I'm proud of you. You are handling this so well, not bottling your emotions but also being strong. I will continue to pray that God holds you in his arms and comforts you.

laura said...

How beautiful.

And we have you in our prayers.

Tim said...

Nice one. I wish it was REALLY dark though. How cool would that be?

Madame Purl said...

I had to get the tissues out. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Luv2ReedGrandma said...

Hey, Beautiful
Take yourself out in the snow and put some of it by your shiner! It's such a pretty green. Loving you today, too Mom